Powell Pumpkin Patch
In all this goodness, my thoughts were tested last week when, in two days, my computer hard drive and my car both died. Two things I use multiple times a day. Both just completely dead, would not turn on, dead. I immediately became frustrated and started feeling sorry for myself. I had already had some stuff clogging up my head space and I was beyond annoyed. Amongst other more serious things including medical stuff on both sides of our family, I have also been missing my sister. A lot. I felt sorry for myself in the moment. I'm also an admitted control freak and type "A" personality, and these two hiccups were NOT on my "to-do" list!!
So, after the dust settled and my car was fixed and I purchased a new computer, I reflected on my complaining and whining and feeling sorry for myself.
I had to ask for help, at which I am not very good. Help with rides, help with watching my kids while I dealt with the car/tow truck (because Steve was out of town). Instead of feeling bad about all of this, I should have just let go and felt thankful that I have a group of friends who would drop what they were doing to come get me and my kids, which they did. In a world of no grandparents and siblings nearby, this means so much to me. I shouldn't have felt bad when my friend asked to watch my kids for a few hours so I could deal with my car. I should have felt grateful that a friend knew I needed a break, and was willing to help me, even if I didn't ask for it.
Instead of being dramatic about losing everything on my computer, I should have been thankful that I had been diligent about backing up my documents and pictures. I should have been thankful that we have the means to not only replace my computer, but upgrade. I should have been thankful that even though I have been driving my car since I was 23 years old (that's 10 years for those that are counting :), I was able to get it fixed the very next day. I should be so thankful to have a car that has gotten me/us around for so long with almost no issues (gotta love those Hondas!).
I am thankful that I decided to gain some perspective on the situation. In my world, these two things seemed like a big deal, but in the real world, these are just ordinary, everyday issues that are easily dealt with. I am thankful (in these moments) for getting older and wiser, learning more about myself every day, and learning to let go a little bit. A few years ago I'm not sure I would have even had the wherewithal (or time) to reflect on my attitude/behavior. I am choosing to see the positive and be thankful because that is where I have learned I am the happiest (and most like myself). Sometimes being thrown off a bit can help put things back in perspective. It was a good lesson in learning to let go and choosing to be thankful. xo